|dont dont dont you want me.. you know i cant believe it when you say that you wont see me...
||[Nov. 27th, 2005|03:21 pm]
fuck four wheelz
|||||STYROFOAM a heart without a mind.. SO FUCKING AWESOMEEEEEEEE||]|
so heres my weekend.. on friday i was suppose to meet my ladies at the bar for some crazy dancing and celebrating and being drunken fools and the bitches had me sitting there by myself for two fucking hours.. luckily.. i can entertain myself and drink a pitcher of beer by myself... (much like i am drinking now).. WEll as i was sitting there i began to make lists.. and i found this crumpled up in my purse this morning so i thought i would write it down here so i wouldnt forget it...
get out of america, stop buying new clothes, write letter and send packages instead of always being of the fucking internet,never date, never get married, never have children,keep a journal(arealone), storp writing important things on napkins,evelopes and barf bags... catolog your comics,never cut your hair, never wash your hair, stop watching home alone, labyrinth,willy wonka, never ending story and bridgette jones diary, learn more languages,never make plans to meet your slut friends anywhere,pose nude several times before my tits hit the ground, have lots of sex before i become grotesquely obeist... stop using words that have both q's and g's in them, learn how to spell, completly obstain from emotional fucking,nevere drink wine while sitting at a bar, frefraim from going home with bar tenders, busboys, band members,gardners professors, artist,fuckwits,alcoholics,straight edge boys and people who work the door at clubs,
never drive a car always ride a bike, movies are better than real life, make believe is better than the movies, love is evil stay far away, dont ever forget how to read musiq,never forget how to read latin, never go to heaven, never have meaningless conversation,always believe in the x'men,never sell out and stop drinking, drink by yourself more often, RUN AWAY, die a goddess in costume jewelry black eyeliner and heavy blue eyeshadow, die with no money left in the bank, never drink black and tans.. yuck....stop lusting over all my female friends,write a shitty book,tell beth i am me because she is she,
most of the dogs that shit on my yard are worth more than me.. not even the dogs.. but their collars are more expensive that my most extravagent outfit....i am a rusty beer bottled opened with a cheap bic cigarette lighter.... ive got about a sips worth of spit at the bottom of me but someone keeps sucking on me because they are to lazy to buy a new beer.....everyone in this city is an artist... and everyone likes that one band.....take me away from this beer that taste like wine, take me away from tattoed stained and bike rusted hands and worn down shoes.. i want to have sex with everyone and noone... i am sitting on a bar stool that is far to big for my body... i wish there was a potion i could drink to correct my prediciment.. but all i have is PBR and all that is playing is this sad detroit cobra song.. last night my hands were so cold ic ouldnt even touch my own body... how depressing is that.. hands to cold to feel your own skin... but ofcourse i kept trying to and screaming like someone was shoving icecickles up my vagina..george and i are okay.. its sad and its hard especially at nights but i love him to much to date him and he loves me to much to date me.. i want him to be happy i want him to have kids.. i want him to have a girlfriend who woudl sacrifice everything for him.. and i cant do that.im not made for that....oh my friends just showed up i hate those bitches..
okay well that is what i wrote.. and then i drank some more and danced and and yelled with all my ladies... How can i hate such beautiful people for more than a moment.. it was a godo night.. i mean yes we were at creeipanemas... but i had a good time.. my girl stevie ray was working the door and we sat and she drank wine out of a handmadelittle coffee cup.. i hustled people to see their I.d's.. i dont think anyone thought it was funny but fuck them.....well then the hoes who had me waiting... left to go to a club and i stayed and just talked to stevie ray .. next thing i know it was last call and my ever so sexy hawian friend tells me i should go get food with her.. so we get on our bikes.. SCREAM BECAUSE ITS SO COLD AND WE ROLL UP TO "ribs rolls and cheesecakes"... we get there order a shit ton of food.. and adjust to the heat... i dont know what we talked about buti know we ate a shit ton of food.. hawian girl can eat some fuckign collard greens and ribs.. i will tell you that much... well this isnt even important but these two assholes woudlnt leave us alone.. so i told them we were students about to go to graduate school in russia.. then we told them that in russia they only have bread and soup... these boys were idiots.. we also told them that we have never dated boys before because all we know is "GO TO SCHOOL GO TO COLLEGE MAKE MONEY'.. they felt so bad for us.. so they told us they wanted to take us out and show us a good time before we left the country.. how nice...
we quickly escaped and ended up playing lord of the rings trivia while wearing fur jackets until 5am.. i rode my bike home and thought i would die... i've never rode anywhere and thought.. "IM NOT GOING TO MAKE IT".. but the other night i almost did.. it was so fucking tight..
okay well saturday was way tight.. i got up at like 2pm.. and Cheryl and i went to the ABC store and bought a shit ton on vodka then we went to some crazy thankgiving party where all these kids we didnt know were there.. we sat down and started pounding drinks... we also decided we are getting our drinking names tattooed on our lips... TEAM D.U.I FOREVER>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> im Mar'tini and shes Sluricane and Ghettoblaster..... anyways.. there were all these kids playing some wack ass poppunk music from like 6 years ago.. it was fun for two seconds then lame.. so i continued drinking and drinking and laughing... there was this one girl there taking pictures ever two seconds.. im not lying.. she had like 3 different camers and a tripod.. we decided she has a 10 minute memory so she has to photograph everything or she will have no idea where shes been or where shes going... she was on some 50 first date shit or something.....but yeah it was so much fun....and then the rest of the crew showed up and and we sat in the living room screaming and dancing to songs from when we were kids we sung.. "step by step".. "ninja turtles"..."family matters".. "saved by the bell".. "full house".. "different strokes".. God it was one of those richmodn moments.. where you just give up and you dont care about anything and you just laugh and dance and sing and its so fucking wonderful..
God my beer is almost gone and i still have so much more to type..
well after the crazy dance episode.. we head downtown to a crusty party.. we were there for a couple minutes and then we decided we were going to make the boys take us to get fries.. so we yelled FRIES FRIES FRIES FRIES FRIES FRIES FRIES FRIES.. and they lied to us and told us we were going to this 24 hour diner.. and then they turned around adn made us go to a bar.. BOOOOOOOOO but it was fun.. it was a good night.. i came home and played dress up in my new empty room.. i danced around with my zombie blood stained wig on and wrote letters to someone who i am so afraid to love.. i was talking to my friend casey the day.. and you knwo how sometimes you just start talking and you are not really thinking of anything.. just going on adn then you say something and you are sort of like.. where the fuck did that come from.. well i was talking to her and i said.. sometimes i just want to tell everyone to never fall in love.. i just want to tell everyone that they are going to get hurt and its not worth teh bullshit.. i told her the only promise i can keep is to promise to completly let you down in the end.. that way if i dont mess up so bad i dont have to feel as bad as i really should.... i was like damn.. haha.. wow.. thats sucks and its so true i mean its so true for me...
but last night was amazing.. i love my friends i cant even explain how fuckign wonderful everyone is.. and everyone is so fucking funny.. and we dont care about anything.. its SO GREATTTTTTTTTTT....sorry dance break down..
"i dont want to lose your love tonight'.. i dont have many friend left to talk to nowhere to run when im in trouble.. you know i'll do anything for you"... I just want to lose yoru love tonight... I dont want to lose your love tonight......" trying stop my hands from shaking something in my minds not making sense"""' I JUST WANT TO USE YOUR LOVE TONIGHT>> I DONT WANT TO LOSE YOUR LOVE TONIGHT>>>>>>>
new power jam
"just a small town girl living in a LOONELY WORLD>>> she took the midnight train going ANYWHERE>>>>> just a city boy... born and raised in south detroit..... he took the midnight train going ANYWHERE.. "piano"... chimes".. approaching guitar strings.... LONG GUITAR STROKE.. duu duu i see her in a smoky room i smell her wine and cheap perfume for a smile they can share the night it goes on AND ON AND ON>>>> strangers... waiting... looking downt he boulevard.. there shadows searching in the niiiniiigght..
GOD I LOVE POWR JAMS>>.
boo no more beer.. damn well anyways now im in a even better mood.. so let me tell you about today.. on sunday use to be masturbation day.. but now on sunday i talk to spectacular spectacular all day long.. spectacular spectacular is WOW... AND WOW and OH MY GOSH AND AMAZING AND just i dont know.. spectacular spectacular is cool beans.. and power jams and icecream sickles.. and swings.. and good stuff...its so weird that i cant even explain it to any one.. i myself dont really understand it.. but geez louise.... spectacular spectacular.......so marvelous that you have to touch your nose.. just to make sure its still there.. so stupdendious.. you have to look up new words in the dictionary just to try to make it have any meanng... i mean its like.. "i cant go for that no can do,,,, i cant go for that nooo no can do".. you know.. like.. brain freeze and to much good stuff.. i mean wow...like looney tunes world WOW.. .like getting shot with a thousand bullets then drinking water and it pours out of you threw little holes.. its like.., runnign yup to someone and pulling their lip and running away and then you let it go and it rolls up and hits them in the face.. its like GET THE FUCK OUT>>> like GET TEH FUCK OUT... its sort of awesome i guess... i dont know... i dont know anything but.. WOW... WOW like blossom WOW.....like zach morris and lisa hooking up wow.. like jesus fucking christ.. but thats all im goign to say for now.. okay i think im done now.. no wait its like.. dont you want me baby.. wow...like i feel for you.. wow...i had more to say but spectacular spectacular is back....
and wouldnt you like to know............................
go fuck yourself...